Old Notes , New Truths.


I decided to burn up my diaries , just wanted to share poems I still found amazing as I went through them. Also , I can’t tell why I can’t seem to get over burning those note books.

The better of two. To obey is better than sacrifice, the lord hath said, To hearketh when he commandeth , than an offering made. All ye say ; “There’s naught to do since Christ doth save . ” Remember what he commands you in the book he gave. Remember only the doers of the word are blest : ‘Tis well to hear and believe it , but to do is best. F E Belden.

By Land , Sea and Air . Stories of daring and adventure , the exploits and the courage of people under pressure, always make fascinating reading. Misfortunes of many kinds , miscalculations of our own for a series of unlikely chances, may befall us at anytime. How we respond to such situations can be the difference between success and failure , triumph and disaster. Unknown.

Saved to serve. Saved to serve in any station , saved to make his goodness known ; Saved to sing His Great salvation, Saved to live for Him Alone. Saved to serve, no reserve, saved to wear his yoke alone . Work and praise all my days , here and round his glorious throne. Saved to show by loved kindness. That his love is full and free. Saved to lead from errors blindness with a tender sympathy. Saved to lift my lowest brothers as the highest lifted me ; Crucified with him that others may have immortality. Unknown.


I’m not going to actually define faith today, just here to talk about a heart issue.

Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see. Hebrews 11:1
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him. Hebrews 11:6

It’s one thing to say you have no faith in God, to say you don’t believe he will heal you, save you, rescue you, be there for you, secure you. Or that you don’t have faith in his existence, you don’t believe he exists.

It’s another thing when you tell a friend you have no faith in them. I mean it feels like telling them they couldn’t possibly be good , or that you hate them or they have been such lousy people. That could be why we don’t use the word faith in our relationships, it’s heart wrenching to tell someone you have no faith in them , that one phrase means so much , so many different things.

Am listening to Great Are You Lord by Casting Crowns. – It’s your breath in our lungs so we pour out our praise to you Holy.

Some day , we are gonna face the King , for all nations, let us make certain not to stand before a King we’ve told “I have no Faith in you ” each day of our lives.

Abundant blessings. Christdentity.9

When you hear the word blessed what comes to mind? A new car, nice house, family, money or a new job perhaps? We all have our own interpretation of the word blessed, but what does God say? Jesus preached a famous sermon on what is renown as the beatitudes. He gave 8 unusual terms for […]

Abundant blessings. Christdentity.9

Free Guy

So, I watched this crazy movie. It’s just one in the many series of movies that incorporate games these days. I watched another where the world literally lived in the video game, yeah that time is never ever coming.

Back to Free Guy, I like interpreting crazy out of the simplest things , but I know this didn’t have allusions to God , I mean just because the player could come to life and function on its own doesn’t mean the person was for a second, thinking of the gods being dead and claiming Man Can Live without their Creator and break free from him. Afterall, in humanity , every one , from the youngest to the oldest , poorest to richest, most ignorant to smartest , sensible to insane , is a gamer , one of a kind and with the freedom of choice . Not to mention capable of changing history.

But a game where players can live on their own, where they have come to life , a world you can join in and be a part of , that wishful thinking goes alittle beyond. I just don’t understand this movie at all , and I beg to be excused by movie lovers.

Please do not spend this season of your life saving fantasy worlds on a screen while the real world is on fire.

Single. Dating . Engaged . Married. by Ben Stuart.

Ohh, Ben Stuart is just saying spend your life as a Single Christian devoted to Christ ” Devotion expresses itself in attentiveness to his Word and attending to his work.” And your married life, the more busy and exhausting one, devoted to your family , because then you won’t have six hours a day to devote to God and you have to pray while you check in on the kids.

Only Name.

Jesus is the only name. Jesus is the Only name to remember.

Am listening to a song , Only Jesus by Casting Crowns actually.


You know, in Africa , our houses do crumble fast , in seventy years , a house nolonger is. But the whites have sort of learnt a way of building houses that will last 200 years , at least I think Britain’s Castles do, but where are the remains of Greece , where’s the Old temple of Solomon , built in splendour , Everything does crumble, sometimes that’s what counts.

There’s indeed only one, Whose name will last forever . But no surprise there , After all only One Name Saves. The others we can remember once a while , And attribute art and science to , But only One is Redeemer. Only on One do we call every day , And we Live For Only One. Only One Whose name will last forever.


Like someone once said, Only what’s done for Christ lives On. But how short our memory is !


Only One Life, It will soon be past. And Only what’s Done , For Christ will last.


” Sexual purity is receiving no sexual gratification from anything or anyone outside of your husband or wife.”

Every young man’s battle . by Stephen Arterburn ,Fred Stoeker with Mike Yorkey

Don’t you like that, receiving sexual pleasure from nothing nor anyone, besides your marriage partner. And here we are, in the era of sex toys , Satan must be having a good laugh.

Purity is one vast treasure. And well, sexual purity is a matter I doubt am qualified to ever talk about. But well,I have read about it alittle for now. I guess we all should be fighting for sexual purity. People are losing track of the fact that even masturbation is sexually immoral. The altar of sexual idolatry sure is a real thing. Sex is like a whole new part of who you are and you suddenly discover there are other organs of your body that can bring you pleasure and it’s in a way , a unique pleasure just like all the others , it’s like one discovering they have a sense of taste and can enjoy ice cream. Only, you have always enjoyed the pleasure of taste , and sight and hearing probably, this may turn out somewhat different. I’m not married yet so I definitely don’t know much about that actually .

I guess I can use my time being single to define sexuality God’s way and also remember, am missing nothing, afterall, intercourse isn’t like food, it isn’t something your physical body can’t do without . For instance in regards to homosexuality, I could keep this in mind ,” Eros alone is not evil, but eros outside of God’s ethics is. ”

(This is for the Ladies ,Literally sexual purity means just that, ask my father ( my earthly father ) for the key, a key not to my body but to my heart . It’s our hearts we should be guarding❤️)

The world says, “Sex means nothing.” But the Word says, “Sex means unity.” Put differently, sexual intimacy means spiritual union.

The Song of Solomon , An Invitation to Intimacy. by Douglas Sean O’Donnell.

I guess the whole sex means unity thing is the basis of the no prostitution rule . Let me quote the bible , “Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said, “The two will become one flesh.” 1 Corinthians 6:16 “

Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God. St. Matthew 5:8

But the Word says, “Sex means unity.” It’s an inexplicable act of mutual passion, possession, and submission: I give my total self to you, and you give your total self to me.

The Song of Solomon , An Invitation to Intimacy. by Douglas Sean O’Donnell.

All who have this hope in him purify themselves, just as he is pure. 1 John 3:3

Marriage should be honored by all, and the marriage bed kept pure, for God will judge the adulterer and all the sexually immoral. Hebrews 13:4

But I tell you that anyone who looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart.St. Matthew 5:28

If you are a Christian and probably going this is impossible. I mean no masturbation ( it’s sexually impure) , no prostitution, no lust, no pornography (God makes the right thoughts a huge priority ) , and then , guess what, even the marriage bed ought to be kept pure , so no masturbation in marriage and no pornography always , now that feels crazy. Well, sex is sort of part of pleasure giving between a married couple so I presume sensual pleasure and you seeking your own might just be impure. And in the novel Every young Man’s battle, they do say that if you can’t win a war on masturbation out of marriage, you will have to continue fighting with it even in marriage, marriage does not suddenly make you win your sexual battles like people think it does.

Actually, it’s in God that all longings are fulfilled. Everything will leave you wanting more because only God can satisfy. But am no expert and am also a representative of the female gender, the war in sexual purity is one we win quite easily, that’s after we figure out a way around dating ofcourse. What actually drives us to immorality will be loneliness, feelings of worthlessness, fear of rejection , etc , in a way, our war is against our emotions mostly, not our physical bodies. The men’s war might be physical mostly but ours , emotional mostly , turns out the sexes do differ abit afterall. But well , we all fight for purity nonetheless.

I guess people should really check out these fun novels. And I will probably be reading about dating , a novel called Kissing Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris. I hope I will remain focused on it, I might switch in the middle, a bad habit that’s developing. But am making twenty years this month, and am so confused about what dating ought to be, though I have never gotten physically involved with anyone, I obviously have gotten emotionally involved while trying to be smart , I ended the relationship but it still hurt and led to a quarrel . And though I can’t keep from getting hurt, I want to know what God thinks about dating in this society, moreso when all my peers think sex is part and parcel of dating. Actually , the relationship in which I got myself involved , we had remained friends even while I talked to him for hours till 2pm in the night , talk just seemed to flow easily , in a way , am scared of dating. But am good with being single , I still don’t know what to think about marriage, and I am enjoying studying.

Back to sexual purity , well, if you think Purity impossible, you should remember we are in a battle . And this time round your body might work against you. But nowhere is battle such an easy thing. Choose Authenticity. Choose Purity, Choose to Fight. Choose God.

Country Roads.


It’s beautiful to belong.

I can’t stop listening to the song country roads, it’s just so enchanting, they had something so glorious.

A family of musicians, Today, it feels like we glorify Hollywood more, but I doubt that makes a difference.

Things have changed , and are still changing , We can’t tell whether Scientists , Philosophers , Historians Or Artists are to be remembered most.

But yes, Leonardo Da Vinci, Micheal Angelou, Isaac Newton, Pluto and Socrates, Mahatma Ghandi and Mother Teresa , Whitney Houston, all these we do remember sometimes.

But how enchanting belonging Is. The tales of friends holding on to each other in war and story telling nights with friends.

We remember all the times we spent together. Personal endeavors are remembered as part of the whole.

Country Roads, take me home. And now am Nostalgic, Where’s the place where I belong ?


The Anger Games.

My siblings at Church last month. 😇

In my family, anger is the one emotion we trust. If you are ashamed , lazy , tired, lonely, exhausted, selfish , self centered, jealous, and you’ve probably failed, then you display anger.

Anger makes the others unlikely to call you selfish. It pushes people away, they literally have to wait until you are laughing again to confront you on your self centeredness so if you can be angry for years and at all times, you might just avoid confrontation, remember, I said might.

Last year , while we were still excited about phones. Now we use them for reading at most.

Recently I was mad about a confrontation which reminded me that my family is one of Record Keepers. I suggested we change jobs at home and said I would cook food I have to and suddenly, every one was talking of how I hate cooking and avoid it, but we haven’t gotten into a cook food fight for like four years . So to be safe, my family keeps records.

Keeping records sort of means you could be conversing happily this afternoon and tomorrow morning, someone will give you the impression that they are clearly mad at you , I sometimes feel like reading facial expressions is a Curse. Point is , you never know why , but if agitated you tried to fix the relationship by trying to talk it out or being kind and doing whatever it takes to solve the issue, you are wasting valuable time. Because you are not perfect , you will make another mistake and the person will be reminded of the long record they are still keeping. But that person is imperfect too, and you forgive them and keep no record but that doesn’t mean they are not as selfish. They are probably self righteous and think themselves perfect ,moreso if they think they do most of the hard work. I spent most of my life before Christ thinking I was self righteous, even though I went to Church, a Roman Catholic One, I never really saw Christ for who He was.

So, why keep trying. Record keeping hurts not just because even while you try to be a better person, that other person still doesn’t trust you but also because your next mistake won’t be a new record, it will be an opener into an old record. It also hurts because record keeping makes it feel like everyday ought to be spent trying to please one , everyday ought to be spent trying to please God, not people. Record keeping goes hand in hard with Bitterness , so it’s not shocking that in my family, people tend to say they are just talking when according to their tone of voice , you feel like they are quarrelling, simple they are bitter and already angry before they talk. And they probably won’t forgive you even after that issue is dealt with.

I’m not asking that my family members trust me, I actually thought that was expected of siblings and I’m just learning that it’s not. They can trust that you will always fail them. I just think keeping a record is selfish, afterall you are obviously not keeping a record of the good things one does ,only a record of the bad, isn’t that unjust.

But then again record keeping feels like a protective measure , like you are ensuring that someone won’t hurt you the same way again because then worldly speaking it would feel like you are a fool . One time I kept a record on my dad so I avoided casually speaking to him so that he wouldn’t say something that would end up hurting me, I was trying to be cautious so that I’m not a fool. Then my sister who follows me started to avoid talking to me casually, she would ignore me while I told her stories about my school, when I asked her, she said she was teaching me a lesson, showing me how annoying it is to dad. I told her I only did it to dad so I wouldn’t get too casual and speak to him as to a friend and get hurt , she said my excuse wasn’t good enough, and I told her she actually didn’t deserve getting an excuse from me, some rights only God has, not people, I told her I didn’t care what she thought. But for the first time it really felt like vengeance is of the Lord Alone.

It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 1 Corinthians 13:5
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.1 Corinthians 13:7

So, love keeps no record of wrongs and love always trusts is actually not that easy at all . I wonder what other secrets loving people God’s way holds , also I don’t think I have learnt how to trust and keep no record of wrongs. Moreso now when I desperately want to keep a record on my sister, a record that says she’s keeping records , and also distrust her knowing that if I trust her to be kind, I might have to deal with unkindness everyday which will hurt as much everyday.